Happy Birthday Munchkin

I am having trouble wrapping my head around the fact that Munchkin's first year has come and gone. I will be the first to admit that I have a tough time closing metaphoric doors on sentimental objects. Like a year ago when the time had come for me to leave the hospital with the baby that I carried in in my belly. I was sobbing while getting wheeled through the hall ways of the hospital with a nurse touching my shoulders repeating "everything will be alright." Of course I knew it would be alright, but this was the closing of a door that I hadn't prepared myself for.

I had spent nine months preparing for the labor and delivery, not leaving the hospital and getting on with my life. I hadn't even considered that I would have to leave the hospital. I grew to love having someone prepare all my meals and have them to me by a specific time each day. I enjoyed having the option of letting the nursery care for my new baby so that I could get a full nights rest. I set my watch to the snack-cart that rolled down the hallways each night at 7:00pm. All the luxuries of a hospital stay aside, I hadn't considered what life would be like on my own with this baby that the nurses kept making me feed. I was like "it's snack time, feed him your self".

Ultimately things worked out. I continued feeding the baby, who turned into Munchkin and now a year has past. He is a lot bigger and he is really cute and sweet. Here I am, however, at the door of another milestone.

It makes me sad to see such a precious amount of time turn into history. I know that the memories of the best year of my life will always be here for me to think of, but is that enough? Are memories strong enough to allow me to take the necessary step in getting on with my life? I suppose that since I have no choice in the matter I had better dive into the future head first, but make sure to take my camera to document all of the memories that are sure to come.

It is without doubt that I say this has been the most wonderful year of my life. Munchkin is a treasure that I can't imagine being without.

Congratulations on a spectacular first year, my darling boy. I love you more each day and I am excited to see all the wonderful things that the future holds for you.

Happy Birthday!